Why did you bring me to Singapore? I have asked you so many times and yet you still did not provide me with an answer... or is it me that is not able to hear your voice...

I am in a trauma now... I just fall into temptations, I cannot control my temper and I am going on with my life, without you...

I feel that I have changed so much that I am not like myself in the past - hardworking, passionate, humble. Now, I always don't feel satisfied with my life, I am lazy and I always think too highly of myself...

I also feel that I am getting more immature and more stupid... This is definitely not me...

What is happening to me? Am I going on a right path? Can I turn back to my actual self?

Honestly speaking, I really want to go back to my actual self. Right now, my body is not following what my mind wants to do... and I always think of doing bad deeds...

I am becoming a horrible and shameful sinner...

Please save me from this pool of troubles... please...

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